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Never Have I Ever

Have you ever tried to play the game called Never Have I Ever during your random drinking session with your friends on a boring weekend night? The rule is simple though, prepare your vodka and beer because you might just take that shot.

I had my shot in living a life away from my own comfort zone. I felt so different right now compared to the way my mind and soul function a couple of weeks ago. I guess it was the break my soul needs. Now, let me play my Never Have I ever game… 

The rule of the game started with the players getting into a circle and all you need to say is Never Have I Ever wherein anyone who experienced it must drink. 

  • Never have I ever been to Manila alone at night.
  • Never have I ever eaten a Whooper inside Burger King.
  • Never have I ever ride an Uber pool taxi.
  • Never have I ever stayed in a shared hotel room.
  • Never have I ever eaten a complimentary restaurant breakfast alone.
  • Never have I ever shared an Uber ride with a guy named Leonard.
  • Never have I ever been to Uptown Mall in BGC.

    • Never have I ever been convinced to buy an anti-aging cream that is worth more than 8k.
    • Never have I ever watch a movie in Manila.

      • Never have I ever been in love with Beauty and the Beast.
      • Never have I ever use Google maps for directions.
      • Never have I ever been to The Palace Pool Club.

        • Never have I ever stroll around the busy Streets of Bonifacio Global City.

          • Never have I ever been to Art Bar in BGC.

            • Never have I ever been to Market Market.
            • Never have I ever been to SM Aura Premiere.

              • Never have I ever been to SM Mall of Asia.
              • Never have I ever talked to a cab driver on how he learned to speak English even if he’s educational attainment is an elementary undergraduate.
              • Never have I ever talked to a Chinese inside an Uber pool taxi.
              • Never have I ever travel alone for 4 days in Luzon.
              • Never have I ever travel with a group​ of strangers.

              • Never have I ever been to Quezon Province and Masbate.

              • Never have I ever experienced traveling against big waves.
              • Never have I ever been to an island alone.
              • Never have I ever been to 5 beautiful islands in just 2 days.
              • Never have I ever sleep without showering and peeing just because it costs too much for a gallon of water.

                • Never have I ever appreciated the simple life since time immemorial.

                • Never have I ever had serious life talks with random strangers turned to friends.
                • Never have I ever watch a sky full of stars.
                • Never have I ever experienced paying a random person to charge my phone and power bank.
                • Never have I ever done something crazy such as cliff jumping.


                • Never have I ever been to a sandbar that is so beautiful surrounded by clear waters.

                  • Never have I ever felt so free and empowered.

                  • Never have I ever been lost in EDSA.
                  • Never have I ever been inside a sleep capsule. 

                  • Never have I ever listen to someone talking and just hearing his thoughts.
                  • Never have I ever been to Army Navy in NAIA.
                  • Never have I ever help a stranger connect to WiFi and see in her eyes how happy she is because she’s now able to contact her loved ones in Zamboanga.
                  • Never have I ever thought that bad ideas can actually produce great memories. 

                    Solitude taught me how to live my life with a sheer appreciation of who I am.  For years I always seek to know more about myself in order to live a life of purpose. I am self-sufficient with an in depth knowledge of my advantages and frailties. Last weekend I did some recalibration not that I don’t do it when I’m lost but it felt so necessary while I’m traveling. A lot of realizations came into my mind and it was an eye opener. It’s about time for me to set some deadlines.  I cannot afford to waste my life waiting and be hopeful for nothing. I cannot live my life forever in a corner with my demons lurking. I cannot live my life without enjoying this beautiful fleeting moments. Even if some circumstances and people are exasperating and making me lose my faith in humanity, I wanted to be the difference. My purpose is to make my stay worthwhile by helping others and making those who’ve lost their faith suddenly feel the hope the humanity needs.

                    One wise friend once told me to try something out just to know if it is for you.

                    Have you tried something you’re afraid of for the first time? I guess it’s about time you play the never have I ever game and see how it’ll change your life for good.

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                    Posted by on March 25, 2017 in personal

                     

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                    Simala Church: Wishes Do Come True

                    “Have you ever thought of someone like you’ve never thought of someone before?

                    During my recent trip, I decided to actually find myself and get connected on what my inner voice is saying.  I’ve been blinded for quite some time trying to push on some things that are not even working out and I’m talking not just about relationships but career as well. I’ve been out of tune for quite some time and still in search of life’s great meaning. So I went to Simala Church, one of the most miraculous churches in the country wherein most of those who believe got their wishes come true. I must say that I’m not really a devotee nor religious. I can describe myself as someone who believes in a Supreme Being but not a total fan of Christian traditions. I don’t even read all chapters in the bible. I just believe in God and in goodness to others. To cut the long story short, I decided to take my chances in Simala. I need divine intervention to sort my chaotic life. I know I needed this trip.

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                    Last March 12, I flew to Cebu and rushed to the South Cebu Terminal to catch the bus going to Sibonga where Simala Shrine is located.  Fare costs at around P63 if I recall it perfectly for an air-conditioned bus. It’s a 2-hour and a half trip where I get the chance to use Google maps for the first time. I am a bit alarmed since the church is only open until 6pm and I was on the bus at 3pm due to heavy traffic from Mactan Airport to the bus terminal.

                    I am glad that I was able to arrived in the nick of time. Habal habals are available on the main road and they’ll be the ones to take you to the shrine for 20 pesos. It was a perfect time for me to contemplate especially that the shrine is so beautiful at dusk.

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                    I lit my colored candles for a specific purpose and prayed.

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                    I lit 5 candles because I know I needed it.

                    Black ( for souls ):  My uncle recently died during my mom’s birthday and I am surprised at the same time saddened of his death.  He is really funny and very nice to me. I love him so much.

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                    I also prayed for my other uncle who died last November. I asked for forgiveness since I was not able to provide him all he wants. I am still starting to save up for my future and been into a lot of financial problems due to family matters that I need to resolve.

                    Green (prosperity ):  I wanted to be financially stable and start to work on my future. I know I needed this to provide my family’s wants.

                    Gold (health): I prayed for my mom’s health to be better as I want her to still see her future grandchild. I must admit I’m not into getting married as of the moment but I wanted my mom to at least be able to see me stable and raise a family I can call my own.

                    White ( Guidance ): My life seems to be pointing nowhere and until now I don’t know how to deal with it. I’m starting to give up and surrender the steering wheel to God for I am headed into damnation. It’s been like this for years already.

                    Red ( Love ) : Being single starts to be uncomfortable at this age. I’m starting to question my own worth, my personality and the likes. It’s exasperating to keep on thinking what I need to change in order to attract someone. I’ve keep on praying and wishing that someone will see me more than a friend but God keeps on denying those prayers. It’s been years full of false hopes but still nothing. I start asking myself why, why am I not worth the words?  Am I not good enough?  The belief I have on myself has been clouded with uncertainties. I questioned my being. I started to feel the blues plus the fear of growing up alone. I decided to surrender this time, to lay my hopes unto God’s feet and let him decide on what’s best for me. I prayed to find him, the one who’ll make me believe that it’s okay to love and be love.

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                    It is one perfect view to indulge into while my thoughts drift into nothingness. Various thoughts were clouding my mind and I just let it happen, I let those thoughts overflow because I know it’s my needed break.

                    Travelling back to Cebu City made me feel fulfilled because I was able to go to Simala alone. It’s true that in order for us to connect we must disconnect for the mean time.

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                    Travelling alone gives you the chance to know more about yourself, it makes you feel so independent and brave. It’s a tough act to follow and I want to experience it all over again. I never trusted myself that much for quite some time due to fear that I might get lost.

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                    It’s a chaotic world we got here and I realized that I should slow down and feel all the adventures as well as my misadventures. I should be positive and trust God for he knows what is best for me.

                    For now, I give up. I’ll let him take the lead.

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                    I never thought of someone as much as I’ve thought of someone right now. Is he the one?  I hope so.

                     
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                    Posted by on March 22, 2016 in personal, travel

                     

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                    01/05 – Day 43: Time to Review

                    CSCI106: Introduction to Electronics is one of my favorite major subjects back in college. I love it because it is easy and fun even though we are required to solve a lot of problems every meeting.

                    I know my posts is getting too random as it gets. Today, I tried to open my journal and I opted not to write because I am not in the mood. When I tried to checked my box where old stuffs are arranged I saw my college notebook back when I was about to turn 17 and a sophie in CS.

                    I hate Math, seriously.

                    When it comes to numbers, it’s been a love-hate relationship. I thought Computer Science is simply about computers, trends in technology and programming but not hard core mathematics. I was definitely wrong. I never realized until our teacher told us that Computer Science is about computation thus COMPUTEr. According to Wikipedia – Computer science or computing science (abbreviated CS) is the study of the theoretical foundations of information and computation. This was the beginning of my beautiful nightmare.

                    I never regret taking up CS and just so you know, college was tough except for great people that made it worthwhile. Two-thumbs up!

                    As time passes by, I feel stuck that it will be harder to come back soon. I decided that this year it’s time to stretch my lazy nerve cells and get it back to work before I forget all those tidbits of being a geek in the binary world. Since I am not really interested in application programming, I will simply give more time in reviewing for web programming and study the trends in cross platform programming so as in graphic designing. I am better in design than in coding so I’ll focus on where I am good at rather than deal with the impossible. Time is my mortal enemy in achieving this goal. I wanted to shift path this year and get the job that I want but for personal/family reasons I just can’t leave Bacolod so I’ll just prepare myself once opportunities strike again rather than bury myself in despair and dumbness.

                    I hate it when my skills are not used as I get stupid and stupid each day. I don’t get my mind to work beyond its limits. It’s just working on a monotonous pace that is too boring for a Sagittarian like me. I want growth and a dynamic life.

                    This is the best time… will be signing off in my current workplace soon, thanks to awesome people that is making my stay long because it’s also hard to forget those shared memories you all have together but then life should go on. Until I do not know where to go, I will still stay. 🙂

                    Note: I don’t know why I chose this particular page on my notebook… I am not planning to review Physics or Electronics, it just happens to be that I really love this subject back in college – especially Ohm’s Law. I even recalled our capacitors and resistors project. haha

                     
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                    Posted by on January 7, 2012 in 23, college, journal, life, work

                     

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                    12/24 – Day 31: Christmas Eve

                    It’s the time of the year again.

                    Tonight, I am just happy that I spent Christmas night at home and not at the office. Even if there is no major celebration, I am just happy being near the Christmas tree and watch the lights dancing to its own rhythm while I think about what my life went and some random things that have happened this year.

                    Thank you for the friends who never failed to be there for me no matter what and also to those who never failed to greet me in advance a Merry merry Christmas.

                    The best gift I have is just to be at home this Christmas Eve. I don’t need a major celebration, all I want is a moment where I can thank God for making me a blessing to others and for all the blessings he had given me. Each failure, I realized something significant that helped me in improving myself and knew more about my capacities.

                    There is actually a lot to be thankful for. The true spirit of Christmas is not about having an expensive dinner with your family or gifts, it’s about recognizing the true meaning of Christmas — it’s all about Christ, love and life. Love and enjoy what you have. Thank you Lord for the gift of life, for my supportive family and for friends who made my life amazing.

                    As what I have always been saying, Life is always awesome! It’s all about perspective. I may rant, whine or curse my job (as this is always been the source of my frustration, depression and failure) but I am still holding on for the belief that maybe, just maybe someday everything will make sense and if not I just hope that someday I may find the job that I will truly love.

                    Merry Christmas people! Don’t forget to pray… remember Christmas is not about you, it’s all about CHRIST.

                     
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                    Posted by on December 26, 2011 in christmas, life, work

                     

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