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Happiness : A Quest


The world did not promise a life without challenges. It is so unfair that sometimes you find yourself sulking in one corner whining why life is so unfair and why you of all the millions of people in the world needs to suffer such ordeal. You chug beers after beers hoping to ease the incompleteness you feel only to end up feeling the same shit all over again. Can we just live a life where dreams can be our reality and everything is just how we imagined to be? 
Probably in a perfect world which is obviously… impossible

According to vocabulary.com happiness is defined as a sense of well-being, joy, or contentment. When people are successful, or safe, or lucky, they feel happiness. The “pursuit of happiness” is something this country is based on, and different people feel happiness for different reasons. Whenever doing something causes happiness, people usually want to do more of it. No one ever complained about feeling too much happiness.

Source: https://www.vocabulary.com/dictionary/happiness

Let’s break it down a little bit further.

Happiness is a sense of well-being. 

When you look at yourself in the mirror do you like what you’re seeing?  

Did you turn to be the person you wanted to be?  

Do you still feel sad when people say bad things about you? 

You wanted a better look and a better body, would you undergo aesthetic surgery just to feel beautiful? 

Happiness is contentment. 

Are you satisfied of what you have right now or do you wish for more? 

Is your house the house you planned out or not?  

Do you have any regrets recently because of some decisions you made? 

Hot guy/gal you recently get along with is way better than your partner, will you take the risk of knowing that person more on a different level even if you’re in a relationship? 

Happiness is success. 

Did you pursue that dream job you wanted since preschool? 

Did you get all the rewards you aimed for while you’re in school? 

Do other people see you as a role model? 

Happiness is being lucky. 

Do you remember the time you won a bet or a game without actually expecting it?

Did a random stranger treat you for something without any reason just because? 

You got the early bird prize and you’re in awe because it’s the first time you came on time.

They say you had beginner’s luck after playing a card game you know nothing about and won three consecutive times. 

Such an amazing feeling,  right? 

Happiness is feeling safe and secure. 

Have you thanked God for keeping you safe during the late nights when you’re alone walking on an alley? 

What do you feel after surviving large waves that can almost capsize the vessel you’re on? 

What do you feel after 3 days of traveling alone and now you’re home? 

You’ve seen your investments and started to build your funds for the future. Isn’t it the best decision you made for years? 

You will get married soon, are you sure he/she is really the one? 

Happiness is something universal, is it? 

What makes me happy may not be the same with other people. The word happy may be something most of us understand but what and who makes us happy vary. It is subjective and affective.  It is one’s perception about life, it is indeed a state of mind. I can be happy whenever I travel — feeling the sands in my feet and watching the sun as it totally sets leaving the horizon with yellow orange watercolor-like splats. Writing stuff without any audience still make me happy because it’s my passion even if others find it boring. I write poems and haiku out of boredom and I feel giddy after because I see my thoughts concealed into words. Earlier I posted questions for every definition of happiness hoping I could answer with a solid yes in the future.  It’s not that I have a crappy life, some things don’t make any sense yet. Happiness is a lot of things for a lot of people and I guess it’s not something universal at all.

Recently I encountered a lot of realizations as I people watch in a nearby café where I work. I looked at the building where I spent almost 7 years of my life thinking when will I finally decide to let go. Career opportunities are steps away and I must say I’m earning good but the light within me is about to fade away. Is this where I really want to be? I still don’t have plan B so better yet stay for the mean time and enjoy the company of people I love to be with. I am still happy but if you ask me if I’m satisfied… without second thought my answer would be NO. There’s this voice inside me that screams, you are made to change lives — to change the world. Next question though will be… HOW

Excitement then fades away. 

Unknown couple pass by while I sip my soup. I then wondered how it feels to have someone who’ll appreciate and accept you for who you are. Someone who’ll text you good morning and good night sleep tight after a tiring day at work. The thought actually cringes me but still made me wonder more. Also, I am wondering how some people would actually still continue to be in a relationship just because they’ve been together for a long time or just because they have kids while love and self-respect are slowly fading away. Some may even try to fix all those indifferences up to the point of accepting one’s cheating acts just to salvage the relationship. It may work but most of the time it fails. I don’t know if it’s just me or what but my take on that would be simple, choose whatever makes you happy. Love sometimes ain’t enough to suffice one’s desire for growth or betterment.If the relationship is no longer healthy and if instead of growing together as better individuals you turned out to be your worst version then it’s about time for you to break away from the stress regardless of the years; regardless of what you’ve sworn in church. God didn’t want you to suffer for the rest of your life thus his gift of reason — for us to choose happiness no matter how selfish others may think it would be.People won’t understand until they get to experience it. 

The gloomy weather is just right for my thoughts as I finished my soup and my other post, Resonated Thoughts. I feel happy after eating my molo soup and felt even happier knowing that I’m able to fluidly write what’s on my mind after a long period of writer’s block. I let my imagination and feelings die for the mean time so that I can get back to my work with a more focus mind. It’s hard to tame my inner Anne Frank when it’s in the mood to scribble her thoughts. 

I realized how different we all are and our definition of happiness is just so interesting. Sometimes we get jealous of others not knowing how much they’ve sacrificed just to attain such achievements or material things. As more people pass by in front of me, I can say that for once in our life everyone deserves to be happy and not judged for any choices we make. 

I can conclude that happiness is a quest. It is our daily struggle that we need to surpass.  It is our day to day journey of finding the answers to life’s daunting questions or it can be our random banter moments with friends. It can be deep or superficial depending on your own personality. It can be a good book, an IG-worthy place, aromatic coffee, old wine or a full 8-hour sleep. Sometimes it may take a lifetime to fully understand life’s meaning or probably another lifetime to prove that happiness do exist even if we’re living in a crappy world. We won’t appreciate such joy if we haven’t shed any tears. Happiness is just like other emotions we feel — it’ll pass, just another moment or another beautiful memory.  It fuels us to go on in search for more of that feeling. It is something addictive as we all wanted to be happy for the rest of our lives. 

If you continue to pursue happiness in your daily life then it will surely brings out the best in this world, Y O U


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Posted by on January 31, 2017 in personal

 

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2016 : In Text and Photos

The year that was and the year that will be…

2016 is not the best year but it’s a year full of new beginnings and bittersweet endings. I’ve written my frustrations and unanswered prayers in my previous blog posts and I won’t rehash it anymore.

December of last year, I decided not to expect much on what 2016 can actually bring into my life. I promised myself to be more open-minded and just let life happen.

I made 2016 my travel year and indeed I got what I wanted — memories and experiences that made me realized how beautiful life can actually be. I went to places I’ve never been to and created new memories from the places I’ve been to before.

In 2017, I want a monthly travel plan like what I tried to achieve last year.

February 

  • Iloilo City day trip

March

  •  Church, Cebu
  • Cagayan de Oro 
  • Bukidnon
  • Misamis Oriental 

April

  • Boracay Island

May

  • Bantayan Island,Cebu

August

  • Kapurpurawan Rock Formation
  • Patapat Viaduct
  • Pagudpud
  • Laoag
  • Vigan 
  • Cordillera 
  • Baguio City
  • Tagaytay 

September 

  • La Carlota City

October 

  • Puka Beach, Boracay 

November 

  • Gary’s Punong, Silay City
  • Dumaguete City

December 

  • Don Salvador Benedicto 

Oh… the places I will go!

2016 taught me to embrace change and I had a surprise of my life when I got transferred to another program. It was one hell of an emotional rollercoaster but I’m glad that I was able to adjust. New team and new colleagues, I’m back to where I’ve started and it’s starting to feel like home.

I failed my 2016 goal but being top team for FCR last Q3 is not bad. A reminder that I don’t totally get what I usually want, TOP TEAM.  I remembered how my ASNP life was, great times with lots of achievements and recognitions. Oh well, I guess I’m simply glad that I met new bunch of people who became a great part of my 2016. 

I got new set of friends this year but still having great times with the old ones.

I’ve been to a lot of events for the first time.

  • Lights of Bago 2016
  • Boom: Music fest 
  • Boyce Avenue Concert
  • Tito Nonoy’s wake
  • RTNHS alumni homecoming 
  • Laboracay 2016
  • Site Recognitions 
  • Birthday Parties 
  • Give a Bag of Hope 2
  • Masskara Festival 
  • Random meet ups and get together
  • Empire : CVG Christmas Party 
  • HSD Gift Giving 

    It’s my first to open a passbook savings account and bought an insurance for myself. This is to ensure my future and be financially independent moving forward.

    Now, despite me going to the gym for the first time last October to be stronger and to shed off some excess fats I still cannot help but indulge myself to new restaurants and café.

    Top 10 favorite places to dine and chill

    • Starbucks
    • Vikings
    • Merkado 
    • Miren Café 
    • Manhattan’s Fleet Gastropub
    • Bob’s Café
    • Delicioso 
    • Bascon Café 
    • Calea 
    • Cantina Mondo 

    Food trippin’

    I am a food junkie who loves to eat and chill.

    Coffee and Alcohol 

    always been my refuge since my mind and heart usually have irreconcilable differences. 

    And vanity continues this 2017…

    9 Best Selfie moments!!! 😂

    Ain’t tired of my face… thank God for the gift of youthfulness. 😂

    I let God take the driver’s seat. I won’t push him anymore to grant my heart’s desires for I know that all good things come to those who wait. I won’t sulk for all the unanswered prayers. I won’t punish myself for the mistakes I did. I won’t live my life with regrets. I will stop holding on to people who doesn’t take an extra mile to be there for me and to show how important I am. I will not settle for less than I deserve just because I don’t have an option. I will stop having too much faith in humanity for it’ll just be another disappointing memory to bear. I will keep on controlling the beast in me because I know how asshole I can be. I should know better and be the bigger person no matter what. I won’t let my anger control me because it’ll end up with something I’ll just regret. I hope I’ll still be more motivated to write and let people know my other side. I hope to inspire others through my words and lastly, I hope to find the incomplete pieces of my life’s puzzle. The blank spaces haunt me, wanting to be filled soon.

    I don’t expect much for 2017. I’ll just embrace it as it unfolds another chapter of my life. Whatever happens whether it’ll turn out to be great or not I know for sure that it will make me a better person. I know I’ll be frustrated again, probably shed buckets of tears or worst encounter another heartbreaking moment. I’ll take whatever God’s challenge will be, as if I have a better choice. Anyways, I choose to chill and I will keep on choosing things and people that will make me happy. Life’s short as they say so why choose to suffer?

     Live and let go for life is meant to be experienced and discovered. Hey 2017, what’s up? I’m definitely ready for you.

    XOXO,

    Carol  😘

     

     
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    Posted by on January 1, 2017 in adventures, art, food, personal, travel, writing

     

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    03/15 – Day 1: It All Starts With God

    I decided to change, well made myself a little empowered rather than killing my time weeping over characters with tragic fate or if not cheesy love stories I wish I have. Yesterday, I was looking for a good book until I bumped into Rick Warren’s Purpose Driven Life. I already read the book and even opted to share it with a friend who shared it to her church which I know served them well. It’s about time for me though to fix myself and again find meaning to my existence. It’s about time for me to let God rule my life just like before. I decided to take the 40-day journey again, this time sharing my thoughts to people and my friends.

    Day 1: It All Starts With God

    “Everything got started in him and find its purpose in him.” Colossians 1:16b (MSG)

    God has always been my source of inspiration, my best friend and the divine force that gives me day to day miracles when I needed it the most. I used to write letters to him daily. My journal begins with Dear God wherein I share my thoughts about what have happened to my day. I wrote everything and anything about my own feelings, my frustrations and my pet peeves. I know that after writing I feel better because I was able to share it with HIM.

    Today, I pray for me to find my purpose. I know that my goals, all my aspirations and the steps I take are still insignificant as He – our divine creator already planned out how we can be great, how we can be the person he wanted us to be. I am patiently waiting for HIS time as I know that he will unravel my purpose soon. I know he has plans for me and I should not worry because he never failed me. He might be distant, he might always tell me to wait patiently but in the end it’s for my own betterment. I trust God and my life is meaningless without his grace. He is my supreme being, guiding me in every decision that I make because he knows far better than I am.

    God, always remind me that I am a nobody and I need you. I know that this life have a lot of temptations to overcome and I get strayed away frequently. I hope you’ll never get tired of finding me, of showing me that I cannot exist without you and of loving me despite me being a sinner. I will let you rule my life by leading me to the right path no matter how painful or challenging it can be. With you, not all paths lead to success immediately as I might need to encounter a lot of detours and a lot of crossroads before reaching it but I must say when things finally unravel according to your plans, it has always been so beautiful and the wisdom to fully understand why it happened makes me feel so blissful. Thanking God has always been a cliché and at the same time an understatement.

    I won’t settle, until I find my purpose as what God designed me to be.

     
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    Posted by on March 15, 2015 in Uncategorized

     

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    10/12 – Day 324: Giving

    We should always learn to give. There are things we need to let go because it’s beneficial for others.

    It’s not just about material things, we can actually give someone the attention that they want, the time, the trust, the respect and the list goes on. Giving someone something can humble yourself, it can help us gain wisdom and it can actually change the world.

    If people starts to give and not always take then the world will be a better place to live in.

    Let me share what Mother Teresa once wrote:

    “It’s not how much we give but how much love we put into giving.
    Always have a cheerful smile. Don’t only give your care, but give your heart as well.
    There is a terrible hunger for love. We all experience that in our lives — the pain, the loneliness. We must have the courage to recognize it. The poor you may have in your own family. Find them. Love them. Good works are links that form a chain of love. We are all pencils in the hand of God.”

    Giving heightens our vitality. It gives us a certain type of joy.

    “Giving brings happiness at every stage of its expression. We experience joy in forming the intention to be generous. We experience joy in the actual act of giving something. We experience joy in remembering the facts that we have given.”Buddha

     
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    Posted by on November 3, 2012 in life, people

     

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    10/05 – Day 317: Be a Blessing!

    Excuse me Ma’am/Sir. I’m John an out of school youth knocking your very kind heart asking for favor to please buy my product. Pasensiya po sa abala, nagsusumikap lang po sa pagbinta upang makaipon at makapagpatuloy sa pag-aral. (I am sorry for bothering you, I am just trying to sell my product for me to save and continue my studies.)

    Share your blessings. Thank you.
    God Bless you a hundredfold.”

    My heart melted when I read this one and we can’t help but to buy his product. He’s a young teenage guy who wants to go to school and simply works hard for him to achieve his goals in life. Some may doubt his intentions but the mere effort made me believe in him. I am blessed to have good education and it’s really inspiring to see this guy who is promising and who works hard for his future. I hope some young ones will also value the importance of education in one’s life. They should not take for granted the hardwork, patience and effort their families are doing for them to graduate and be the person they want to be in life.

    If there are chances that you can be a blessing to others… grab it and share what you have no matter how little it is, it’s the thought that counts.”

     
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    Posted by on October 28, 2012 in life, Life Blog, people

     

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    08/02 – Day 253: Paparapapa Love ko Toh!

    Back to our old tambayan, recalling the days we used to spend after activity hours months before graduation suddenly brings too much nostalgia. Today we bid goodbye to one of our dearest friend ever – Ms. Kim as she finally ventures out and take risks to a place new to her(wow drama! haha). I know she have waited too long for this and I’m glad that it’s finally happening.

    It’s nice to have fries and sundae with old time friends who were there through good times and bad. All the frustrations, the heartaches, the corny jokes and the random banters wherein the walls serve as witnesses in all of our craziness is surely one delightful thought to remember. All the coffees chug down to hype up my system, the reports that need to be finish and submitted to the office of student affairs, the planning of future activities and meeting agenda, all the stress Red Cross brought me way back in college is something that I am glad to experience. It used to be my way of life, being too workaholic for a cause that I love so much. Leading a team that eventually became my closest circle of friends after 2 years was one of the best achievements I have. No medals, certificates and awards can ever replace the greatest people I have been with. The memories bring certain kind of joy that is fulfilling and personally it has been a humbling experience. I don’t need to type all their names as I know they definitely know who I am referring to. I miss the good ol days. I miss the Crackbang barkada. 😀

    I wish I will have that same drive again… the will to succeed. I guess I just need time to motivate myself again. I know what I am capable of, I just don’t need to prove my worth. I’ll do what I need to do, it’s my decision though if I will do my best or just settle on being a mediocre, worst – a failure. Some may think I am lazy, no goals or whatsoever — well, I don’t really care. I have plans, I just don’t like talking about it especially if I am still not certain. Therefore whatever happens… bring it on, I’ll take it… just don’t underestimate. 🙂

    P.S.: If I am down, I just love to sit and recall all the good memories spent in the best tambayan place ever — Mc Donalds – Lacson.

     
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    Posted by on August 9, 2012 in college, food, life, people

     

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    07/12 – Day 2332: All Smiles

    Dolphy’s death reminds me of the beautiful childhood memories I used to have with my family. I always look forward for Christmas and my birthday as that is the usual time that we are complete and I can say “picture perfect”. Every week, we used to watch Home Along Da Riles and laughed at the gags of the sunog baga and Kevin Cosme. I think I grew up watching Dolphy’s shows from Home Along Da Riles, Home Along Da Airport and John en Shirley. I feel so old as of the moment reminiscing those great memories I used to have at home as my time right now seems to be drifting away with work and sleep wherein everything is a monotony.

    If you have time, try to look back and recall your childhood memories. You’ll surely realized how time passes by so fast and how much you have grown all along. 🙂

     
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    Posted by on July 22, 2012 in life, people

     

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