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On Friendships That Stayed and Lost.

On Friendships That Stayed and Lost.

Humans as we are are born to be social creatures. True to that cliche saying, no man is indeed an island.

Back in highschool, I think having lots of circles will make me cool and famous. I got my own set of friends that dig in my interests and I got other circles I join sometimes to talk about computers and WWE. I can say that I’m friendly even if I had one or two classmates I haven’t talked to until almost graduation. 

In college, I’m such a social creature as I’ve joined several organizations. I can’t say I’m famous but I got a lot of networks from other clubs making it more easier to meet others. Smiling, nodding and saying hi has been a daily thing.

Today, I realized that in order to be better I don’t actually need millions of people that would say hi to me and would invite me out for a party or dinner or whatever they want to do. As I grow older, I think of friendships as a loaded ship where those that don’t matter will just weigh you down and will just capsized everything.

I choose my friends wisely. I choose people who can enter my life as precise as possible. Yes, I do have trust issues. I let those people in because they deserve to know my quirky demons, both tamed and untamed. God gave me this weird instincts that know how to distinguish a good company or not so I’m making use of it all the time. I am not sorry to those that I don’t want to be in my life because I can sense that you won’t understand at all instead you’ll feed into my miseries and will just kill me with your words when I’m not around. I don’t like to be with people who make fun of others to feel better about themselves. I don’t like to be with people who think they are better than others just because they are smart and famous. I don’t want to be with people who befriends you because they have intentions. I don’t like to be with people who’s ain’t my frequency and vibe. 

I stick with people who makes me glad that I’m alive. I like to spend my time with colleagues, subordinates and friends whose minds are wired to mine especially those with kindred spirit and meekness I adore. I choose to be with those that make me happier and better. People who makes me not lose hope in humanity and people that brings out the best in each other. 

Cheers to my friends for all these years who’ve seen me cry, laugh like an idiot, drunk, in rage and plainly crazy. Kudos to those who listened and took time!

I may have lost people along the way but I got those who matters most today. 

 
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Posted by on May 28, 2017 in Thoughts Brewery

 

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Happiness : A Quest


The world did not promise a life without challenges. It is so unfair that sometimes you find yourself sulking in one corner whining why life is so unfair and why you of all the millions of people in the world needs to suffer such ordeal. You chug beers after beers hoping to ease the incompleteness you feel only to end up feeling the same shit all over again. Can we just live a life where dreams can be our reality and everything is just how we imagined to be? 
Probably in a perfect world which is obviously… impossible

According to vocabulary.com happiness is defined as a sense of well-being, joy, or contentment. When people are successful, or safe, or lucky, they feel happiness. The “pursuit of happiness” is something this country is based on, and different people feel happiness for different reasons. Whenever doing something causes happiness, people usually want to do more of it. No one ever complained about feeling too much happiness.

Source: https://www.vocabulary.com/dictionary/happiness

Let’s break it down a little bit further.

Happiness is a sense of well-being. 

When you look at yourself in the mirror do you like what you’re seeing?  

Did you turn to be the person you wanted to be?  

Do you still feel sad when people say bad things about you? 

You wanted a better look and a better body, would you undergo aesthetic surgery just to feel beautiful? 

Happiness is contentment. 

Are you satisfied of what you have right now or do you wish for more? 

Is your house the house you planned out or not?  

Do you have any regrets recently because of some decisions you made? 

Hot guy/gal you recently get along with is way better than your partner, will you take the risk of knowing that person more on a different level even if you’re in a relationship? 

Happiness is success. 

Did you pursue that dream job you wanted since preschool? 

Did you get all the rewards you aimed for while you’re in school? 

Do other people see you as a role model? 

Happiness is being lucky. 

Do you remember the time you won a bet or a game without actually expecting it?

Did a random stranger treat you for something without any reason just because? 

You got the early bird prize and you’re in awe because it’s the first time you came on time.

They say you had beginner’s luck after playing a card game you know nothing about and won three consecutive times. 

Such an amazing feeling,  right? 

Happiness is feeling safe and secure. 

Have you thanked God for keeping you safe during the late nights when you’re alone walking on an alley? 

What do you feel after surviving large waves that can almost capsize the vessel you’re on? 

What do you feel after 3 days of traveling alone and now you’re home? 

You’ve seen your investments and started to build your funds for the future. Isn’t it the best decision you made for years? 

You will get married soon, are you sure he/she is really the one? 

Happiness is something universal, is it? 

What makes me happy may not be the same with other people. The word happy may be something most of us understand but what and who makes us happy vary. It is subjective and affective.  It is one’s perception about life, it is indeed a state of mind. I can be happy whenever I travel — feeling the sands in my feet and watching the sun as it totally sets leaving the horizon with yellow orange watercolor-like splats. Writing stuff without any audience still make me happy because it’s my passion even if others find it boring. I write poems and haiku out of boredom and I feel giddy after because I see my thoughts concealed into words. Earlier I posted questions for every definition of happiness hoping I could answer with a solid yes in the future.  It’s not that I have a crappy life, some things don’t make any sense yet. Happiness is a lot of things for a lot of people and I guess it’s not something universal at all.

Recently I encountered a lot of realizations as I people watch in a nearby café where I work. I looked at the building where I spent almost 7 years of my life thinking when will I finally decide to let go. Career opportunities are steps away and I must say I’m earning good but the light within me is about to fade away. Is this where I really want to be? I still don’t have plan B so better yet stay for the mean time and enjoy the company of people I love to be with. I am still happy but if you ask me if I’m satisfied… without second thought my answer would be NO. There’s this voice inside me that screams, you are made to change lives — to change the world. Next question though will be… HOW

Excitement then fades away. 

Unknown couple pass by while I sip my soup. I then wondered how it feels to have someone who’ll appreciate and accept you for who you are. Someone who’ll text you good morning and good night sleep tight after a tiring day at work. The thought actually cringes me but still made me wonder more. Also, I am wondering how some people would actually still continue to be in a relationship just because they’ve been together for a long time or just because they have kids while love and self-respect are slowly fading away. Some may even try to fix all those indifferences up to the point of accepting one’s cheating acts just to salvage the relationship. It may work but most of the time it fails. I don’t know if it’s just me or what but my take on that would be simple, choose whatever makes you happy. Love sometimes ain’t enough to suffice one’s desire for growth or betterment.If the relationship is no longer healthy and if instead of growing together as better individuals you turned out to be your worst version then it’s about time for you to break away from the stress regardless of the years; regardless of what you’ve sworn in church. God didn’t want you to suffer for the rest of your life thus his gift of reason — for us to choose happiness no matter how selfish others may think it would be.People won’t understand until they get to experience it. 

The gloomy weather is just right for my thoughts as I finished my soup and my other post, Resonated Thoughts. I feel happy after eating my molo soup and felt even happier knowing that I’m able to fluidly write what’s on my mind after a long period of writer’s block. I let my imagination and feelings die for the mean time so that I can get back to my work with a more focus mind. It’s hard to tame my inner Anne Frank when it’s in the mood to scribble her thoughts. 

I realized how different we all are and our definition of happiness is just so interesting. Sometimes we get jealous of others not knowing how much they’ve sacrificed just to attain such achievements or material things. As more people pass by in front of me, I can say that for once in our life everyone deserves to be happy and not judged for any choices we make. 

I can conclude that happiness is a quest. It is our daily struggle that we need to surpass.  It is our day to day journey of finding the answers to life’s daunting questions or it can be our random banter moments with friends. It can be deep or superficial depending on your own personality. It can be a good book, an IG-worthy place, aromatic coffee, old wine or a full 8-hour sleep. Sometimes it may take a lifetime to fully understand life’s meaning or probably another lifetime to prove that happiness do exist even if we’re living in a crappy world. We won’t appreciate such joy if we haven’t shed any tears. Happiness is just like other emotions we feel — it’ll pass, just another moment or another beautiful memory.  It fuels us to go on in search for more of that feeling. It is something addictive as we all wanted to be happy for the rest of our lives. 

If you continue to pursue happiness in your daily life then it will surely brings out the best in this world, Y O U


 
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Posted by on January 31, 2017 in personal

 

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2016 : In Text and Photos

The year that was and the year that will be…

2016 is not the best year but it’s a year full of new beginnings and bittersweet endings. I’ve written my frustrations and unanswered prayers in my previous blog posts and I won’t rehash it anymore.

December of last year, I decided not to expect much on what 2016 can actually bring into my life. I promised myself to be more open-minded and just let life happen.

I made 2016 my travel year and indeed I got what I wanted — memories and experiences that made me realized how beautiful life can actually be. I went to places I’ve never been to and created new memories from the places I’ve been to before.

In 2017, I want a monthly travel plan like what I tried to achieve last year.

February 

  • Iloilo City day trip

March

  •  Church, Cebu
  • Cagayan de Oro 
  • Bukidnon
  • Misamis Oriental 

April

  • Boracay Island

May

  • Bantayan Island,Cebu

August

  • Kapurpurawan Rock Formation
  • Patapat Viaduct
  • Pagudpud
  • Laoag
  • Vigan 
  • Cordillera 
  • Baguio City
  • Tagaytay 

September 

  • La Carlota City

October 

  • Puka Beach, Boracay 

November 

  • Gary’s Punong, Silay City
  • Dumaguete City

December 

  • Don Salvador Benedicto 

Oh… the places I will go!

2016 taught me to embrace change and I had a surprise of my life when I got transferred to another program. It was one hell of an emotional rollercoaster but I’m glad that I was able to adjust. New team and new colleagues, I’m back to where I’ve started and it’s starting to feel like home.

I failed my 2016 goal but being top team for FCR last Q3 is not bad. A reminder that I don’t totally get what I usually want, TOP TEAM.  I remembered how my ASNP life was, great times with lots of achievements and recognitions. Oh well, I guess I’m simply glad that I met new bunch of people who became a great part of my 2016. 

I got new set of friends this year but still having great times with the old ones.

I’ve been to a lot of events for the first time.

  • Lights of Bago 2016
  • Boom: Music fest 
  • Boyce Avenue Concert
  • Tito Nonoy’s wake
  • RTNHS alumni homecoming 
  • Laboracay 2016
  • Site Recognitions 
  • Birthday Parties 
  • Give a Bag of Hope 2
  • Masskara Festival 
  • Random meet ups and get together
  • Empire : CVG Christmas Party 
  • HSD Gift Giving 

    It’s my first to open a passbook savings account and bought an insurance for myself. This is to ensure my future and be financially independent moving forward.

    Now, despite me going to the gym for the first time last October to be stronger and to shed off some excess fats I still cannot help but indulge myself to new restaurants and café.

    Top 10 favorite places to dine and chill

    • Starbucks
    • Vikings
    • Merkado 
    • Miren Café 
    • Manhattan’s Fleet Gastropub
    • Bob’s Café
    • Delicioso 
    • Bascon Café 
    • Calea 
    • Cantina Mondo 

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    I am a food junkie who loves to eat and chill.

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    always been my refuge since my mind and heart usually have irreconcilable differences. 

    And vanity continues this 2017…

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    Ain’t tired of my face… thank God for the gift of youthfulness. 😂

    I let God take the driver’s seat. I won’t push him anymore to grant my heart’s desires for I know that all good things come to those who wait. I won’t sulk for all the unanswered prayers. I won’t punish myself for the mistakes I did. I won’t live my life with regrets. I will stop holding on to people who doesn’t take an extra mile to be there for me and to show how important I am. I will not settle for less than I deserve just because I don’t have an option. I will stop having too much faith in humanity for it’ll just be another disappointing memory to bear. I will keep on controlling the beast in me because I know how asshole I can be. I should know better and be the bigger person no matter what. I won’t let my anger control me because it’ll end up with something I’ll just regret. I hope I’ll still be more motivated to write and let people know my other side. I hope to inspire others through my words and lastly, I hope to find the incomplete pieces of my life’s puzzle. The blank spaces haunt me, wanting to be filled soon.

    I don’t expect much for 2017. I’ll just embrace it as it unfolds another chapter of my life. Whatever happens whether it’ll turn out to be great or not I know for sure that it will make me a better person. I know I’ll be frustrated again, probably shed buckets of tears or worst encounter another heartbreaking moment. I’ll take whatever God’s challenge will be, as if I have a better choice. Anyways, I choose to chill and I will keep on choosing things and people that will make me happy. Life’s short as they say so why choose to suffer?

     Live and let go for life is meant to be experienced and discovered. Hey 2017, what’s up? I’m definitely ready for you.

    XOXO,

    Carol  😘

     

     
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    Posted by on January 1, 2017 in adventures, art, food, personal, travel, writing

     

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    On Being 27

    This ain’t the life I imagined to be 10 years ago. When I was a kid up to my puberty days, I planned my adulthood — I actually planned it too well. I wanted to settle down at 25 because I know that I already have a successful career and a husband who’ll be the father of our three beautiful and handsome kids. I will also have a lot of cars and purebred dogs. I’ve travelled to many places here and abroad. I am living my life so lavishly that people envy my success. 

    Well, those are just my unrealized dreams. 

    I’m now 27 with no savings, no car and no boyfriend. I am lost with what career to pursue despite the degrees I have. I am not even 30% of who I hoped to be. Quarter life crisis hits me up so well that I don’t know how to deal with it sometimes. 

    I used to be idealistic with a lot of bulleted plans waiting to be checked. Even my day is used to be so well planned out. It also makes me feel so inefficient when I have a lot of remaining boxes waiting  to be ticked. I have no idea when I started to fully loosen up in being a perfectionist. Probably it’s when I realized that life is  better spent  spontaneously because planning can sometimes be too frustrating. Life is unfair, full of bullcraps and sorrows. Life is full of never ending heartbreaks, failures and unanswered prayers. Life is not about just being persistent to achieve. Life is all about timing and faith.

    As I always tell myself, timing is never my strong suit in the deck of life. My success is not about luck but hardwork and pains. There are moments wherein I almost gave up,  nobody knows how I battled depression… how I almost decided to pull the trigger and bid goodbye to this world full of frustrations. I got my skeletons hid well in the closet masked by my positive demeanor. I am a universe full of secrets. I am mostly  alone in my battles but saved by friends who’ve been through worst — some bunch of psychos who survived depression well. I realized that not all happy people are happy and we all have stories to tell.

    My faith in God never ceased despite of prayers unanswered. I yelled and hated him for not giving me the life I wanted. I begged for him to return my dad.  I screamed at him. I hated God so bad yet I submit to his will. I know God has a better plan — he always nail it at his own perfect time. I am not a church goer but I believe in God’s presence. I know he’ll always be there for me and that all my prayers will be addressed soon. 

    I am blessed to have people who are there for me no matter what. I may not trust a lot but definitely glad to be trusted by most. I knew that somehow I did something right in my life. Even if I don’t have everything I wanted, I turned out to be someone better than I expected. All the bad memories made me more human. The pains I faced made me more empathetic. The heartbreaks I had made me a poet. Life made me feel more of a human being with better understanding of human nature and not just being purely driven to succeed because of my intelligence. I acknowledged my flaws and accepted it because it humbles me. I have controlled my egocentric self who feeds into every achievements I have. I now know my worth and I don’t seek to be recognized. Who I am is a product of both bad and good experiences that actually made me a person my mom and dad can actually be proud of. I live for them. I know they did great in raising me and I’m happy of my choices in life because I turned out to be more than they expected. I always overhear my Tito Edsel and Mama talking about how proud they are of me. They may not have express it verbally but the sacrifices they did for me says it all. My success is always dedicated for those people who believed in my prowess since Day 1 — Daddy,Mama and Tito Edsel. 

    At 27, I am more mature in dealing with my life. I am still a work in progress. I still want to be a poet, a photographer, an artist, a celebrity and an ambassadress. I don’t know how I’ll reach for those crazy dreams but I’m willing to take that leap. I’ll probably get my life going towards the right direction ASAP.  I always pray for enlightenment in every decision I make. My life is a battle of tough choices between practicality and passion.

    • I wish to travel more and experience different culture. 
    • I wish to capture more beautiful sunrises and sunsets.
    •  I wish to have more sands to walk to. 
    • I wish to hear more waves roaring and watch its ebb and flow. 
    • I wish to drink more cups of coffee. 
    • I wish to write more haikus and share it to the world.
    • I wish to inspire more people to love poetry. 
    • I wish to spend more time with my aging mother. 
    • I wish for more moments under the stars. 
    • I wish to drink more alcohol and celebrate life’s successes and pitfalls. 
    • I wish to find someone who’ll tame my heart full of spite in the idea that forever exists. 
    • I wish to live my life full of faith in God’s perfect plan. 

    I never felt so good after all these years and I hope at this age I’ll be able to make my wishes come true. I also hope to find a man who’ll see my worth and will have the courage to tell me he loves me not just a boy who’s intimidated by my success and won’t fight for his feelings. I need a man, not a boy who doesn’t know how to fight what he feels. I need someone who’ll never let me go. Someone who’ll show me that I’m worth the words and he’s worth the wait. 

    At 27… I want life to finally happen as what God intended it to be. Please, God. Please. 

    Amen.  

    XOXO, 

    Carol 😘

     
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    Posted by on November 23, 2016 in personal

     

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    Bantayan Island: Not Your Ordinary Paradise

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    One of the best weekend spent on the beach with friends. It’s so nice to finally commune in nature after some tiring week of school and work related stress. It has been my lifelong dream to travel and write about the world we are currently in. I must admit I am not really a writer, I am just a blogger who writes from her soul. This will be one of my few summer adventures that I will be blogging just because this place is really worth every single share. Bantayan Island is located west of the northernmost part of Cebu province. It’s actually one of the largest in the whole Bantayan Island Group which is composed of not more than 20 islands. Most tourists visit the island during Holy Week because it is the island’s fiesta. Party goers from all walks of life are enjoying the scenic view, eat, drink and definitely be merry! I love partying but since I am an ambivert ( partly extrovert, partly introvert) Bantayan is the best place for solitude so I rather choose Boracay for the party scene and let Bantayan be Bantayan — I want to savor its serenity and wander around when there’s a lesser crowd. Now, enough of my introduction and let’s start rehashing my less than 24 hours stay in the beautiful paradise that made me realized that life is too short to waste  in worries. I remembered swimming under the stars and the full moon. It was so blissful and should I say solitude at its finest. Thank you Lord for the needed break. I finally have unwind from all the hustles and bustles of my city life. I could not thank you enough for the beautiful weather and clear skies that night. I am in one with your creation and it has been an awesome experience . It actually reminded me that you exist and that you’ll always be there watching us no matter what.

    And again, to cut the drama short… let’s start talking about Bantayan Island — such a beautiful place to wander.

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    I left home at around 6:00 am and took the 6:50 bus to Cadiz for 95 pesos. When you reached the terminal, there will be trike drivers who will offer to bring you to the port where the fast craft is. It depends on the number of people so I suggest go in groups so that you’ll pay only 20 – 25 pesos from Cadiz terminal to its port. For 290 pesos, you’ll be able to reach Bantayan Island in 3 hours depending on the weather. Make sure you reached the port before 9:00 am or else, you’ll wait for tomorrow because there’s only one trip each day.

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    Bantayan Island is 4 hours away from Bacolod and most of the travel time is spent on the sea. Nevertheless, the place is really worth the time spent waiting. After we reached Bantayan Port, we went to Grez Bell, a restaurant nearby which offers delicious and mouth watering delicacies. Since everyone is so busy with regard to the Pacman and Mayweather fight, we waited for almost an hour but again, it’s worth it. I ordered chicken curry and I swear I love it. My friends ordered steamed veggies and sizzling squid.

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    After our oh so fully loaded meal — we are off to see more of the sun, sand and definitely the BEACH!!! Oh yeah! But first we roam around the municipality’s market to check out some goodies. It’s nice and very affordable.

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    You need to ride a trike for 25 pesos in order to reach the beach resorts in Sta. Fe which is a 15 – 20 minute ride from the wharf.

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    Most of my travel time was spent on daydreaming the white beaches and cloud watching.

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    There are several beach front resorts you can choose from when you reach Bantayan Island. Prices of these resorts range as little as P1,500 to P5,000 per night. Finally, we’re in Budyong Beach Resort! Budyong Beach Resort is one of the most affordable resort in Bantayan Island. It is a nicec place to stay if you are into a great beach experience with your family and friends. The resort takes pride of its location and staff that are very helpful and accomodating. They are recommending activities that make your stay in the island very worthwhile and that includes tricycle transfers, boat and bike rentals. It’s one of the choices when you want a beach resort with powdery white sands and beachfront cottages that offers the best view of the sea. Swimming in front of the resort is also good because the water is clean,cool and no big rocks that can hurt your feet whether it’s high tide or low tide. The place is so serene and calm, just the perfect place for you to destress and unwind. I will surely recommend the resort to my friends.

    Budyong Beach Resort Website: http://budyong.byethost7.com/budyong/index.html

    For reservations and inquiries, please feel free to reach them thru the following: 

    Phone : (032) 438-9285
    Mobile : 09213145275
    Email : budyongbeachresort@hotmail.com

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    Best place to stay with family or friends and just commune with nature.

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    We stayed in a fan room worth 1300 pesos which is already good for 4 persons and the only room available that day.

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    Time to feel the island vibe first before we start the fun… fresh green mango shake from Budyong’s Restaurant! It is so refreshing — definitely a must try.

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    More pictures of Budyong Beach Resort hoping it will entice you too to stay there… 🙂

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    It was such a beautiful place to stay. Late in the afternoon after we’ve settled down, we decided to go island hopping, snorkeling and swimming. It was an amazing experience unfortunately I don’t have a watercam or GoPro to capture the corals and fishes that I’ve seen as well as the beautiful full moon that really capped of my stay. It was a one of a kind experience — my Bantayan Universe experience.

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    The moon that is so full and BEAUTIFUL! The best island experience.

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    I am such a speed fan and it’s nice to be reunited with an old love. Happiness on wheels and brakes, I am swooned and so excited to test my biking skills after all these years.

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    And just what I’ve thought… I still got the skills. I feel so alive and happy. It’s me and my bike to places I’ve never been. Thank you Bantayan Island for making me feel like a kid again. I owe you such a memorable experience. Thank you Lord for keeping me safe too. 🙂

    After the island hopping adventures, we were super hungry. We rented bikes and pedalled our way to the most recommended restaurant of the locals — HR Restaurant. Time to fill the growling stomach with sumptous delicacies. Gambas! Chicken! Sinigang! Halo-Halo! Yahoooooo!

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    The bar is actually so chill but I decided to be sober that day. I swear I’ll drink on my next visit.

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     And my friends went to buy something as souvenirs while I am biking all over the various blocks.

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    Time to swim under the moon and the stars. I will just close my eyes and rekindle the most beautiful memory. Solitude at its finest. I was just there lying on the sand under the infinite stars watching the clouds clear up to give way to the moon. Definitely a-MAY-zing! 🙂

    I woke up early to catch the breaking dawn and I was not able to miss it. I was there watching the sun as it totally breaks free.

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    Now, time for my usual beach routine — a walk in the beach, alone. There is really something about solitude that makes me feel alive. I know I am weird but I guess I am used to that alone but never lonely feeling. I got God watching me and I am watching his creations. Every beach trip is always an experience I cherished. I captured some of the sights I saw while walking the long stretch of white sand.

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    After some walking, time for some biking before we go home.

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    Saying goodbye was a little bit hard but the experience is fulfilling. I think I left a piece of my heart to the island that fueled my artistic side. I can now write my thoughts and emotions again. I must say — I was so happy in less than 24 hours and I will definitely come back soon.

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    Goodbye island life, until we meet again.

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    Posted by on May 5, 2015 in 25, adventures, beach, life, personal, travel

     

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    03/17 – Day 3: What Drives Your Life?

    On March 20 – 21 will be my comprehensive exam and to be honest, that’s what drives me the most this week. 10 subjects in just 2 days. Oh my gee. I swear I am about to collapse as I can feel all the anxieties and panic surge. I am driven to finish my deliverables at this moment so that I can fully study except that my mind is currently jittering. Oh well.

    Anyhoo, Day 3 of my Purpose Driven Life Journey focuses more on what drives us to exist. It helps us in answering the question about your driving force. What is your driving force by the way? Me, all I want is to finally check all my bucket lists and live a life full of purpose by being the person I am destined to be. Big statement? I know.

    The book though listed five most common drives that we experienced:

    • Many people are driven by guilt.

    I agree as I experienced this before. I did live my life haunted by the shadows of my past. I already wrote about it few years back but I am glad I was totally over it though it took me hell lot of time to forgive myself. Never let your past rule your life.

    • Many people are driven by resentment and anger.

    “Resentment always hurts you more than it does the person you resent.” I don’t dwell on the negatives because it won’t do you well. Always accentuate the positives and burn the negatives. Let go of whatever happened to your past. Learn from past experiences. Have no room for regrets.

    • Many people are driven by fear.

    I decided to live my life without any fear as I don’t want to hinder myself with all the possibilities just because I am afraid to take chances.

    • Many people are driven by materialism.

    I am definitely guilty of this. I’ve got goals I want to achieve. Having a car is one of my ultimate plans as of the moment because I want to go on roadtrips and be in places I haven’t been. I wanted to earn more so that I will buy whatever I wanted to buy and be wherever I want to be. I am materialistic perhaps, a wanderer, a person driven by his goals. I am aware that money won’t bring me permanent happiness because I am still a believer that the best things in life aren’t actually things. I remind myself that my value is not actually based on what I have monetarily but who I am as a person. Real security is our own relationship with our Creator and not just money.

    • Many people are driven by the need for approval.

    “Those who follow the crowd, get lost in it.” Do what your heart screams for and be a person who lives his life according to other people’s expectations. Seriously, you are living such a sad life if you let the expectation of others define you. You are living on someone else’s shadow. I promised myself that I will never ever let anyone control my life. I did not exist to fulfill the expectation of others. I won’t let you or anybody else define me, your opinions won’t define me.

    Without a purpose, life is motion without meaning, activity without direction, and events without reason.”

     

    A life without a defined purpose is the greatest tragedy of all. It is existing for nothing. If you’re still lost, keep on asking God to lead you the way to greatness. Never stop on hoping that someday your life finally makes sense and that you exist for greater good. Keep going! Keep on believing! Never cease on asking God!

    “God… is able to do far more than we would ever dare to ask or even dream of – infinitely beyond our highest prayers, desires, thoughts or hopes.”

    Knowing our purpose has its own benefits. It gives us meaning. It simplifies our own life as we know what we will prioritize the most .It gives us the sense of balance to live our life by focusing more on what really matters making our lives a little lot effective. Prune away those activities that don’t do you well.

    You can be busy without a purpose?What’s the point?”

    Our purpose helps us in motivating ourselves because it produces passion. It drives us each day because we are loving what we are doing. Lastly, if we live a life with purpose it actually prepares us for eternity. I always tell myself that I need to please God when I die. The greatest pride is to hear him say, “Very well, my child. You lived your life according to my plans. You may now enter the kingdom as I’ve waited long to be with you again.”  I need to change my belief about living to leave a legacy on earth because I know my existence will then be forgotten.

     
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    The Day Before I Turned 25

    Minutes before midnight, I’m sitting alone waiting for the bus to finally come and take me home. It’s been a long spontaneous day for me.

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    It’s been a long day and I did crazy stuffs I won’t regret doing. I actually feel a little sad, well depressed is the exact word for no reasons at all. I’m sad because I’m getting older and nothing seems to be happening in my life — quarter life crisis thingy. I feel shitty today so  I decided to date myself after my friends turned down my various offers.

    Fine, since I’m stubborn I did go to the mall and unwind. I know I’ve been working too hard lately, I just need to breathe. I treated myself with an iced caramel machiatto and watched people. I miss people watching at dusk so I’m pretty much glad I was able spend at least 30 minutes of savoring my coffee as various thoughts cloud my mind. I also got my first sticker!  Yey!

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    I also did the unthinkable, walking in a notorious street alone. I went to Baywalk — Bacolod’s famous chill place to try karting. I’ve been an adrenaline junkie. My first lap was actually a disaster because I’ve crashed on tires but nevertheless it was frigging AWESOME! My smile was actually tattooed, yep I was smiling the whole time I hit the gas. It’s been my dream, to buy my own car and learn to drive. I wanted to be a race car driver… Herbie was actually my favorite childhood movie. Lindsay Lohan was amazing in her role. Blah blah blah. Haha

    Again, I had fun in the track even though I  had boo boos and been a major hassle to the caretaker. I want to try those car drifts. I want that freaking speed. I want it like I never wanted something before. It has been my dream…

    After my nerve wracking experience, I visited St. John Paul II tower. It was a humbling experience.

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    He’ll always be my favorite Pope.  🙂

    The view on top of the tower is actually beautiful. It reminded me of my Cebu vacation. I must say, this is staycation at its best.

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    Beautiful boque lights…

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    SM City Bacolod from the tower.

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    I swear, I could have tried this before but I didn’t take the risk.

    I stroll around SM City after my Pope John Paul II tower experience. I am not in the mood to go home yet so I used the movie ticket I won to watch Big Hero 6. It was a very nice movie I didn’t regret watching.

    It’s 12am. 

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    Happy silver year to me!

    I’m still waiting for the bus. It’s like waiting for eternity.

    I’m embracing a lot of problems this year.  Quarter life crisis taking its toll and life issues that will surely heighten my emotions once again. Oh God, I need you big time, this time.

    Anyways, let me take this chance to say my thanks to you Oh Lord for the never ending patience and blessings. Thank you too for giving me the wisdom to understand that life won’t usually go as what I’ve planned it to be and that circumstances really do happen to test my faith and trust in you. Well, I won’t easily give up. Your plans are way better than mine so whatever it is, I lift my uncertainties to you. Thanks a lot for not giving up on me for the past 25 years. I owe you a lot my Lord. Please guide me still in every decision I make. All in God’s perfect time, Amen.  🙂

     
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