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Oh Well.

It’s been quite a while since the last time I blogged here in WordPress. I would admit that I miss it. January is really one hell of a month and I’ve been so stress that even my health is degrading but I need to face the battles head on. Oh well. — as what I always say.

My career direction is not just one thing that bothers me but the status of my heart as well. I have been single for 23 years and I am fine with that. It’s been a decision that I made because I just wanted a real relationship and knowing myself, I am not the type who easily commits unless I am 200% sure enough that he’s the one. I broke my heart several times and the first time was actually the most life changing one. I’m tired of retelling my story because it’s been a decade ago and I am totally over my best friend. It was the first and last time I cared too much for someone and it was close to a real relationship. Again… OH WELL.

It’s been a tough life time, a series of events that made me better and miserable but then again what matters most is that I am still standing still and feeling stronger right now.

Today, I’ve fallen in love and I am too scared of what will the outcome be.
I’ve fallen in love in between our laughters and shared stories.
I’ve fallen in love because he made me feel special and trustworthy.
I’ve fallen in love just because he’s one amazing person that you just simply need to unravel.
I’ve fallen in love because I can be real without him judging on how crazy I look and instead just laugh at it.
I’ve fallen in love because at the end of the day I realized that he makes me happy and I know I make him happy as well.
I’ve fallen in love without knowing the exact reason why but one thing I am sure of… this love feels so right.

And what scares me the most is that… he might not feel the same way even if his actions do speak louder than those “3 words”. Lord, I swear if he finally looks at me in my dumbfounded state – eye to eye and tell me that I am special… I’ll never let go of him because I am never sure of committing to someone until I met him.

Oh well. 🙂

 
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Posted by on January 31, 2013 in Uncategorized

 

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Happy 2013!

2012 is over, whether it’s a good year or not I guess it’s about time for us to move forward.  At this very moment, the scene outside of our home makes me smile. A cloudless sky plus a tranquil atmosphere at home makes me glad that I am in my safe haven. Thank you, Lord for a simple Sunday. I hope to have more  perfect Sundays at home.

 

This 2013, instead of dwelling on my crazy past, I rather live my life as happy as possible. Whatever will be, will always be no matter how you wanted to control the things in your life.

 

It’s been a tough life and I am happy that I emerged victorious after all the ordeals. I may need a heart of stone in order for me not to get too attached because emotions can sometimes make all decisions hard. This year, I am definitely tired being a fish swimming in the main stream… Hell, even a dead fish can do that so it’s time for me to take charge and be someone I want to be. I may need to swim against the tide and make sure to stand in every decisions that I need to make.

 

Big Question: What do I really want to be?

 

The list goes on and on and I don’t even know where to start… bottom line, I just want  to be a better version of myself.

 

I don’t want to worry too much about my life, instead I’ll just wait for my moment and work hard for today. I trust God because I know he’s just preparing me for a life well lived — a purpose driven life, a life according to his plan.

 

It’s about time…

 

… to start planning my short and long term goals.

… to be more positive and accept that shit do happens.

… to be a full pledged blogger who blogs not to rant but to inspire others.

… to finally soul search if this is what I really want to happen in my life, if this is indeed the job that I really want.

… to love and beloved.

… to travel and explore the Philippines.

… to save up for my future.

… to be humbled with all the blessings God has showered upon me and make sure to live an inspiring life.

… to review my bucket list.

… to live my dreams.

 

Let’s all begin the year with an optimistic outlook and a promise to end it with a smile because you knew that after all the things that have happened you became a better person.

 

Happy 2013 to y’all. 

 
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Posted by on January 12, 2013 in Uncategorized

 

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